I had an amazing, transformational experience I wanted to share with you because it affects so many people, especially activated lightworkers. I went on a Bliss Out retreat with Charis Melina and Leija Turunen, which I highly recommend to anyone looking to expand and evolve spiritually. One of the Blissers mentioned I was apologizing a lot and without cause. This was something I had thought about and heard before, but I didn’t realize the significance, or the ramifications of my apologetic nature.
Ever since I can remember, I have apologized for EVERYTHING! I would say, “I’m sorry,” for things that had nothing to do with me. For example, if it started raining and you wanted to go outside, I would apologize for it raining outside. No joke! I would apologize to people for their negative feelings, experiences, and thoughts. When I started paying attention, I was probably saying, “I’m sorry,” at least four to six times an hour. That’s over 64 times a day! So, why is this a problem? Let me tell you!
Our words carry specific energetic vibrations, which is why they are so powerful, why words can hurt us, or why words can inspire and motivate us. Our words interact with our DNA to mold our genetic expression (there will be an in depth article on this soon), and when we use words that resonate with shame, guilt, fear, or negativity, we bring ourselves to those levels. You may not be conscious of trapping yourself in these frequencies, but when you unnecessarily use phrases like “I’m sorry,” you are bathing yourself in self-defeatist mindsets.
Before the retreat, I experienced a lot of growth intellectually, emotionally, and spiritually, but I wasn’t quite where I wanted to be. I knew I was capable of going further, especially since we are all ever expansive beings, and I wanted to experience the next level of myself. During my retreat experience, I broke every barrier or wall I had ever created for myself. I let go of control and surrendered to the experience. What I unlocked was a magical transformation.
I no longer feared rejection, loss, or anything else you can think of; my world became fun, playful, and full of divine love for everything and everyone, including myself! I realized I am capable of helping and healing others right now, in this moment. I realized it is equally important to nurture my creative, expressive inner child, to be content in my introspective knowing and understanding of my experience, and to immerse myself in nature to connect with everything I had worked so hard to distance myself from. My world had shifted in a matter of minutes with the awareness that I am enough, as I am, and I am all I need in every moment of every day…and so are you!
We are all divine beings of light. We all have a purpose and matter in the amazing pattern we have weaved to create our experiences. There are no mistakes in the universe and you are experiencing this life for a reason. Most importantly, you are here because you are worthy, beautiful, important, intelligent, and have the potential to change the world for the better all on your own! This is why I refuse to give anymore unnecessary apologies; there is no need to apologize for the infinitely beautiful creator that you are. Your thoughts, feelings, and actions matter! You matter! If you were superfluous, you would cease to exist. Therefore, I am asking you to stand in your power, honor all of the pieces which make up you as a special individual bringing light to this planet, and to never apologize for your right to exist.
I lived most of my life in a self-induced prison of apologies; I told the world, and myself, through my language that I wasn’t worthy, I was less than, and I didn’t matter. I have no more apologies to give, nor do I care to. I set the intention, which I think will resonate with many lightworkers and people of service to humanity in particular, to love myself like I love others. Loving other human beings, even the unsavory ones, is like breathing for me. I love them all. I see what is special and unique in each one and it makes me feel blessed to live in a place where there is so much diversity and uniqueness, creating a divine constellation of change and co-creation.
You and I are the creators of our experience, especially with our words. There is a reason why there is an old saying, “Speak it into being.” You have the power to create your experience solely through your word choice. So the next time you speak or have introspective thoughts, I encourage you to use words that are loving, inspirational, and encouraging to yourself and others. Your world will radically change for the better. No one can love you better than you can, so love yourself enough to be kind to yourself.
I used to watch the world from a window. I felt unworthy of enjoying the fun going on outside. I could see it, I wanted to join, but I was afraid of rejection and I simply didn’t love myself enough. Now, I’m immersed in nature, cartwheeling through life (literally), and experiencing the greatest joy I wasn’t even aware existed. No one loves me more or better than me; I am finally fulfilled by being my authentic self in every moment of every day. I want for nothing from any other human being anymore because I have found solidity and solace within my own divinity. Love yourself enough to give yourself the same gift.
Much Love & Go In Peace 🙂